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02 Aug 2004
: 23:27:08

Kurt, just last week I was giving you advise about the military and how to best proceed. Now you are gone! I honestly can’t say that I ever remember seeing you depressed or upset, well of course there was early last year when the unit was getting ready to deploy and you were told that you couldn’t go because you had become a Cadet! Trust me, I know how that felt. Just two years ago I was in those same shoes. But staying back to support the unit was not all bad either. I got to know you very well while the unit was in Cuba, and I am sure that you had the same experiences while we were in Afghanistan. I know that the people around you felt your energy and willingness to complete every mission above standard. It’s hard to think about you without smiling, yet right now it’s hard to smile, you will be dearly missed and you will forever be in our minds, souls and hearts. You made a great impact on the people you met and I know you would have made an outstanding Officer.

The only good thoughts I have for this great loss of you as a friend and fellow Officer, is that you beat us all to join our brothers who we lost earlier this year. I know that Mo and Butch welcomed you with open arms as you arrived, and I am positive that we now have not two but three guardians watching over us in life. Rest in peace Kurt until we meet again.

LT Birch

: 02 Aug 2004
: 23:48:42 -0400

Kurt, I've been trying to come up with some sort of funny story to tell about you but I can't think of anything. I want you to know that you've always had my full respect. I never really heard you talk much, always so serious while you were working, but Nic assures me that's just because I didn't catch you at the right times. You will be missed.

Janeene and David, Your son was an amazing soldier and he was on track to be an outstanding officer. It has been a blessing to me to watch him mature in his leadership. Please know that we are here for you if there is anything that we can do.

Sincerely, Terri Birch

: 03 Aug 2004
: 14:17:58 -0400

To the friends and family of CDT Williams, my prayers are with you. I only knew CDT. Williams for a short amount of time. He was a genuinely nice guy and had lots of potential. I, as well as the unit, will miss his leadership as well as his companionship.

PFC Zarrillo

: 05 Aug 2004
: 13:44:13 -0400

David and Janeen, After spending some time with you on Tuesday, we continue to keep you in our thoughts and prayers. We know the coming days, weeks, and months will require your parience and much faith. Our prayer for you would be that when healing can come to you that your thoughts of Kurt will be filled with the many happy memories that I'm you can enjoy sharing together! Much love, Gene and Shirley

: 06 Aug 2004
: 00:46:32 -0400

Kurtie - You better know that your sisters miss you and love you very much. But at least we know where you are and know we'll see you again. Until then....

: 07 Aug 2004
: 07:03:16 -0400

The last weekend Kurt worked with you all, I was there. That was a crazy weekend. It started out with him being an hour late to meet me. I dropped Kurt off and then went back to sleep. I woke up to find Kurt's car had a very flat tire. I was stranded in his car without air conditioning on one of the warmest days we've had this summer. I sat there for two hours until help arrived. We had the tire repaired on his lunch break causing him to be a little late. Everything seemed to be going wrong until that evening. That night I told him I loved him. He joked with me about getting married in a few days. I was so afraid of him going active and getting deployed - I kept telling him how I'd drag his butt to Canada - kicking and screaming if I had to. He wouldn't have let me - he would have gone without question. One careless accident and my baby's gone. He was the only guy I've ever been with that I truly had that floating feeling. We had plans and we were supposed to be together for a long time. I was supposed to meet his family in September. Instead I met them in August - at his funeral. There will never be another like him - ever. We knew what each other was thinking or going to say before it was said. People keep telling me it was for a reason and that I'll learn something from it, etc, etc - whatever it is - it's not worth it. I'd do anything to get him back - but I know that's selfish of me. He's in a better place and if given the choice he probably wouldn't want to come back. I don't blame him. I hate living in a world where things like this happen for no reason and there is no explanation. I would have never thought people could hurt like this and still live through it. No words could express how alone I feel and how painful this all is. I pray for his family as much as I can. He told me what each family member's reaction to me would be. The one that sticks with me the most is when he told me "My mom will just have to make sure you're good enough for her baby boy." He was not only the baby of his family, but the only boy. Honestly, the moment the words were coming out of his friend's mouth to tell me he had been killed and for the next few days - if I had a loaded gun in my hand or anywhere near me - I would have used it. But everyone keeps telling me it's not what Kurt would have wanted. To his family: My whole family is praying for you all - even though I've only met you once I knew who each of you were as soon as I saw you because he loved talking about his family. To Kurt: I love you, baby and I'll see you again someday. I'll never forget you singing My Girl to me whenever I was having a bad day. You always made me feel better regardless of what was going on. You always looked at me like I was something special. I hope I made you feel the same way.

Love, Erica Nicole Hayes (your s.g. and h.p.)

: 15 Oct 2004
: 15:40:54 -0400

Kurt ~ The day you left, this world became a less colorful place to live in. You brought a richness to my life that I will always cherish. My heart aches with the knowledge that I will never again see your face or hear your voice. This I do not want to accept. I can smile only when I consider that God must be pulling His hair out because you are driving Him crazy. I am comforted knowing that, because I was in your heart here on earth, a piece of me is in Heaven with you right now. I will always love you and I will never forget you.

: 19 Oct 2004
: 18:47:00 -0400

I miss you today.

: 29 Oct 2004
: 19:49:10 -0400

I miss you today. The weather is kind of windy and stormy. There's a charge in the air, like the night we went to the river and set off fireworks. Lots of little things remind me of you.

: 03 Nov 2004
: 09:58:50 -0500

All these people keep telling me things will get better. I know everyone's just trying to help - but people really do say some stupid things - the one that appalled me the most was - You're young you'll find someone else. I was speechless but wanted to scream "Does that bring him back to his family?" It will never change the fact he's gone. Kurt asked me one time if when we were forty and something happened to him - would i get remarried - I was quiet for a second and told him that would depend on a lot of things - would you want me to? He thought for a minute and said, "No, because you might find someone who could make you happier than I could." It still makes me smile. I wouldn't have to be a part of his life if he came back - just to know he was here living his life and happy - would be enough for me. It was absolutely amazing how fast we clicked and just knew - after meeting and hanging out with some of my family - they all knew too. Most people don't have to experience this until very late in their lives and sometimes not at all. Now all of us have to carry this around for the rest of our lives. He was supposed to go with me on Halloween to Six Flags - it was my birthday. It hurt so much to have to realize that I'll turn twenty and then twenty one and twenty two and he still won't be here. And our big paintball game we had planned behind my house in the woods by the lake will never happen. Kurt, everyone tells me you'd just want me to be happy like I don't know that - all I want to know is that you're okay and for you to know how much I miss you - it seems like a nightmare that I can't wake up from. I don't understand why this happened and I'll never accept that I have to move on. You'll always be in my heart - exactly where you should be. Love, Erica

: 25 Nov 2004
: 13:20:28 -0500

Happy Thanksgiving! I miss you today. I am thankful for having had you in my life for as long as I did. I am thankful for the memories that I will always carry in my heart. I love you, Kurt.

: 25 Dec 2004
: 11:43:14 -0500

Merry Christmas Kurt. You are in our thoughts and your family are in our prayers.

: 25 Dec 2004
: 17:34:21 -0500

Merry Christmas, Kurt! I miss you every day. It is amazing to me that, while we celebrate the remembrance of Christ's birth today, you are celebrating eternity with Him right now. I love you always.

: 29 Dec 2004
: 02:04:03 -0500

Kurt~ I am sorry I didn't get the chance to meet you. My heart breaks for your family everyday, but especially the holidays. We know we have to make new traditions to ease the pain of the old ones. Take care of MO, he sometimes speaks before he thinks. God Bless you and your family always. Michele Mowris, widow of SSG Doug "MO" Mowris

: 01 Jan 2005
: 19:04:04 -0500

Happy New Year, Kurt! I miss you today as I remember the New Year's Eve that we got to spend together. I love you always. I really miss you.

: 31 Jan 2005
: 12:02:48 -0500

Hi, Kurt !

: 31 Jan 2005
: 12:04:05 -0500

Hi, Kurt! It's hard to believe that you've been gone for six months. I still miss you every day. I love you always.

: 02 Mar 2005
: 23:18:47 -0500

Hey, Kurt. I miss you all the time. I wish, I wish, I wish. You're in my heart. I love you so much.

: 04 Mar 2005
: 23:32:50 -0500

TO THE KURT L WILLIAMS FAMILY I TO KNOW WHAT YOU ARE GOING THROUGH AS FAR AS LOSING A VERY DEAR AND LOVED ONE MY SON SPC DAVID BUTCH HALL WAS KILLED IN AFGHANISTAN IN FEB OF 2004 TO ME OUR YOUNG PEOPLE BEING KILLED IS HORRIBLE MY HEART AND SOUL AND SYMPATHY GOES OUT TO YOU AND YOUR FAMILY DONNA LINN MOTHER OF FALLEN SOLDIER DAVID HALL GOD KEEP US TOGETHER IN PRAYERS AND HEART AND SOUL GOD BLESS YOUR FAMILY 3-04-05

: 06 Apr 2005
: 20:42:46 -0400

Hey, Kurt. I miss you so much. I love you always.

: 27 Apr 2005
: 00:39:37 -0400

thank you

: 30 May 2005
: 23:19:55 -0400

Bless the Williams family on this Memorial Day and every day. Geno's

: 03 Jun 2005
: 20:29:24 -0400

YOUR FAMILY WILL ALWAYS BE IN MY THOUGHTS AND PRAYERS THE FAMILY OF SPECIALIST DAVID "BUTCH" HALL GOD BE WITH YOU AND YOUR FAMILY

: 29 Jul 2005
: 07:24:53 -0400

It's been nearly a year. July 24 was when you went to the Wizards game with the tickets I bought you for a really early birthday present. You and your soccer. I hope you know I still miss you and think of you and your family everyday. You were definitely one of a kind and I know I'll never meet anyone like you again. You taught me a lot about life. I just hope I can start utilizing that knowledge and stop being so afraid of death. Since you've been gone I have become so afraid of everyone else around me dying. On July 31, it'll be a year - but the early morning of August 1st is when Kevin called me. I still have nightmares about that conversation. I can't wait to see you again someday - until then I'll be praying for your friends and family. Rest in Peace, Kurt.

: 09 Aug 2005
: 19:50:56 -0400

Our family was so sorry to hear about your loss. Your son served with my nephew Spc. Butch Hall who was killed in Afghanistan last year. Please know that our thoughts & prayers are with you all. The Lord will not let you go through this alone. Lean on him & your family & friends. God bless our hero's & all they stood for. Cheryl (Hall ) O'Brien Fort Scott, Ks.

: 16 Aug 2005
: 11:41:56 -0400

Hey Kurt, I just felt like talking to you today. I miss you a lot. You would have gone so far in life - you already had. I still remember our first date together like it was yesterday. You will always be in my thoughts and prayers. Things are getting better and I hope your family can start saying the same thing soon. I can not imagine what it's like to lose a brother or son - especially one as special as you. I could never forget about you even if I wanted - I still get emails and calls from ticketmaster.com about buying more Wizards tickets lol. I never did get the shirt you bought me from the game. I distinctly remember you saying how we were going to share it and it suddenly became yours too lol. I remember long long long nights on the phone and everyday after you'd get home from work - you'd tell me to never let you stay up that late again - but we'd both forget by the end of the evening. I have so many memories for only getting to know you a short three months. I'll always remember you. Love, Erica

: 23 Sep 2005
: 12:03:36 -0400

Happy 25th!!! Love, Erica

: 06 Oct 2005
: 12:17:25 -0400

I had a dream about you last night. You came back and everything was as it used to be. Maybe it was because I watched My Girl and memories came flooding back of you and me. Maybe it was because I miss you still. Maybe it was because it was beautiful yesterday here in Chicago and I thought back to the walks we'd take hand in hand at the Lion's Club Park in Rolla on days like that. Maybe it was because I started singing 'El Camino' yesterday and was reminded of your t-shirt and how you'd sing me that song every time I asked - even though I asked constantly. I know now I will never escape these thoughts and memories. Someday, however, I hope to escape the hurt they cause. I never want to forget you, but I would like to forget the pain. I still miss you. Love, Erica

: 06 Oct 2005
: 17:56:23 -0400

I was reading through some of my posts and forgot to sign this one - but no biggie - you know who it is - miss you, hun. Love, Erica *"It's been nearly a year. July 24 was when you went to the Wizards game with the tickets I bought you for a really early birthday present. You and your soccer. I hope you know I still miss you and think of you and your family everyday. You were definitely one of a kind and I know I'll never meet anyone like you again. You taught me a lot about life. I just hope I can start utilizing that knowledge and stop being so afraid of death. Since you've been gone I have become so afraid of everyone else around me dying. On July 31, it'll be a year - but the early morning of August 1st is when Kevin called me. I still have nightmares about that conversation. I can't wait to see you again someday - until then I'll be praying for your friends and family. Rest in Peace, Kurt."*

: 07 Oct 2005
: 20:34:32 -0400

Hey - just a little lonely today - thinking of you. Miss you. Love, Erica

: 13 Oct 2005
: 15:29:18 -0400

Rest in peace -SGT Hackler

: 11 Nov 2005
: 06:46:38 -0500

REST IN PEACE TO A GREAT AMERICAN SOLDIER DONNA LINN

: 11 Nov 2005
: 23:07:26 -0500

Another one of our own. My you rest in peace our soldier. Watch over our men and women and help bringh them home soon. Good Bless you. Michele Mowris widow of James Doug "MO" Mowris

: 31 Jan 2006
: 10:48:02 -0500

If I had only known It was the last walk in the rain I’d keep you out for hours in the storm I would hold your hand like a life line to my heart underneath the thunder we’d be warm If I had only known It was our last walk in the rain If I had only known I’d never hear your voice again I’d memorize each thing you ever said And on those lonely nights I could think of them once more keep your words alive inside my head If I had only known I’d never hear your voice again You were the treasure in my hand; You were the one who always stood beside me So unaware I foolishly believed that you would always be there But then there came a day and I turned my head and you slipped away If I had only known It was my last night by your side, I’d pray a miracle would stop the dawn And when you’d smile at me I would look into your eyes and make sure you know my love for you goes on and on If I had only known If I had only known The love I would’ve shown If I had only known I wish I'd had more time with you, Kurt. I miss you.

: 06 Feb 2006
: 16:10:12 -0500

This is Neena Williams and I'm trying to locate ERICA HAYES. I'm Kurt's sister and we found the t-shirt he bought for you at the soccer game. I've tried the phone number and address I have for you without luck. Email me at neenawms@yahoo.com so I can get your info and mail the t-shirt to you. I don't know how else to find you.

: 08 Mar 2006
: 23:56:33 -0500

Hey Kurt. Still think about you everyday. Love, Erica

: 23 Sep 2006
: 16:42:50 -0400

Happy birthday, Kurt. I miss you so much.

: 23 Sep 2006
: 16:50:05 -0400

Oh, yeah.... One more thing. Have you perfected the guitar riff to "Sweet Home Alabama" yet? Ha! I think of you every time I hear that song. You were so determined! Goofball. I love you always.

: 14 Mar 2007
: 10:51:54 -0500

I would just like to say that my thoughts and prayers are with Kurt's family. I was friends with Kurt for a while, and often visited him in Boliver. He was such a great guy, and I will never forget him. It seems just like yesterday that we were hanging out, he had the goofiest roommates! I really do miss him a lot. We lost touch, and I really regret it. I know that he is in Heaven watching over his friends and family though. Kurt~~love and miss you~~~~Jenni

: 06 Jul 2011
: 22:20:57 -0400

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: 28 Sep 2011
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